The lasting effects of being in remission from cancer

I feel bad that I have not posted anything for a few days. I am writing my life story and that of my family in my pages and in addition I am publishing my romance novel chapter by chapter. All that ground to a halt over the last few day, nearly a week in fact. I have had cancer twice and in remission twice. The NHS has been wonderful. To keep my body in that status quo I have three monthly injections. Obviously I keep a diary record of when these are due but in any case my body seems to know when the next one is needed. I become more tired, less able to concentrate and I lose impetus. I was concerned that I was just being psychosomatic but I truly do feel all this. Thankfully, I had the injection yesterday and now although getting going late in the morning I can achieve more. I wanted to share this as I initially thought that being in remission would put everything back to 'normal' and I would be the old me. In fact, I am a new 'me' and I can see things more clearly. By that I mean connections with friends, people's agendas if they have one and what matters in life. I will go back to the Blog pages today or tomorrow but please do not feel you are alone if your feel down even though you are in remission.

Having cancer affects every part of your life. For a long time I did not know that I was developing cancer and by the time I had a test, I had almost left it too late. The feeling of being under par was diagnosed as Depression and Anxiety States. I went off work and my employer didn't take my illness seriously. It still grieves me that once I was diagnosed with cancer they called me in again and I was dismissed for failing to attend work. They even wanted me to go in to see them the day after I had treatment as though cancer treatment was like taking an aspirin. I wish they could accept the harm they did to me and try make amends. The employer finally accepted my having early retirement on grounds of ill health but it has been very hard. I was so affected by the cancer and the dismissal from my job that having sold my family home, I wasted money including buying a new car I didn't test drive and subsequently loathed and sold at a loss, I turned down the right home to buy which I still regret and I trusted the wrong people. I am now more settled and I have a life to live for and look forward to. I have even learnt to pace myself when doing jobs around the home. If you recognise any of these scenarios please know that you are not alone.